Leaving FRIENDS, Leaving HOME, Leaving FAMILY, Leaving BALI, Leaving INDONESIA

The day after tomorrow is the day that I'm gonna leave.

I'm gonna leave my friends, -well I don't have that much of friends, but I really appreciate those who stand by me-

I'm gonna leave my family, -my parents, the reason why I'm doing this. my brothers, who always wanted the best for me-

I'm gonna leave home, -the only place I've been living in, it is even older than me, it's 20 years old now-

I'm gonna leave Bali, -the island I always worship, where I've done everything I've ever accomplished-

I'm gonna leave Indonesia, -which I decried the most, but deep inside, I am always proud of it in International Events, despite of the poverty, corruption-

Leaving.. I've been thinking bout it since ever. 

But I don't really feel like doing it,

even though I've packed my things, I've said goodbyes, I've known where I'll live in SG

but there's this one thing,

I'm still at home. 

I still joke around with my bros, I still chat with my mom,

and most of all, I'm still at home. 

I'm proud of my mom.

I'm the only daughter she's got, but yet, she packed my things with no hesitation.

Man, how could she be that strong??

Me, I sometimes cried at night, knowing I won't be sleeping on this bed anymore. 

Gosh, I'm so fragile. 

My bro,

There was this one night, when he went to my room,

said that he wanted to spend the night with me.

Then, he talked about me going to SG, how they will miss me,

how he always wanted the best for me.

Both of us cried that night, all together, holding each other's hand until we fell asleep.

I promised  everyone here, that I will be good,

living life there happily,

and

reach all of my ideals.

It seems like this goodbye, means 

a new start for me.

Where I can erase my past -which I am not proud of-

Where I can do better

Where I can start to learn to treat people better

Where I can be someone new,

someone better.

Goodbye friends, home, family, Bali, Indonesia,

Devy C

THE *NEW* KING OF TENNIS 2008

World, we got ourselves a new king of tennis of 2008!
Nope, no more ROGER.
2008, is the year of RAFA NADAL!!!

In case you didn't know, Nadal won the 2008 Wimbledon.
He also had won 4 titles of Roland Garros.
In the Wimbledon, he ceased Roger from winning his 6th title of Wimbledon.
He also, for the record, stopped Roger from 6-years of being Number One Tennis Player on the planet.

He is showing progress for the last 2 years.
For instance, this is his 2008's record for grandslams.
Australian Open : Semifinal
French Open : Winner
Wimbledon : Winner
US Open : Semifinal



Rafa on the previous match of Mutua Madrilena

L. I. G. H. T.

'Try to leave a light on when I'm gone.. Something I rely on to get home..' Light On, David Cook.

'Darlin' leave a light on for me.. I'll be there before you close the door.. To give you all the love that you need..' Leave a Light On, Belinda Carlisle

Light.. Give me light.
To bright my path.. Make it obvious..
I am confounded by destiny.
How I never seem to understand the path that I'm going to.
But here's the thing, it makes me think.
It makes me wander in my own mind.
Why is everything so absurd?

Light.. Show me how it works..
Lighten up everything I've been missing..
So I won't shed a tear in the future,
regretting those things.

Light.. Show me the way.
I want to mean something to someone.
I wanna be a guidance. I wanna be the something!
Can I? Or it just doesn't meant to be?
When I'm gone, will anyone realize?
Will I be remembered?
Or will I just be a painful and regretful memory of someone's?

Light.. Give me a clue.
I can't stand it,
wondering,
how am I to be lingered?
Or wouldn't I be?

It's me,
Devy

URGENT!

I am going to do that *HORRIBLE* test again!
Oh Looord, help meee.. I better pass, cause if not, my mom's gonna give me one-hour lecture!
BAM!!

Oooooh nooooooo! Can anyone help me to learn? I dunno what to learn actually..
I already quit my English Course.. Oh my..
I dunno what to do now..

Need urgent help!
Devy

I

I was looking through one of my friend's blog and I realized that I wanted to bring this topic long ago. But I always forgot somehow. So here it is.

Did you know that the a research showed that 'I' is the most used word in telephone?
Well, it's a fact and I think we should all know that.

In case you're wondering, what's the point of me writing this? Bringing this topic?
It's not weird that the word 'I' is used a lot.
Lemme tell you, THAT is the point.
Still got confused?

We, we just don't realize of how often we talk about ourselves.
I mean, we just care about ourselves, we tell stories, not caring whether the listener wants to hear the story or not.
For example, when you talk about Harry Potter,
'Oh, I love Harry, but I hate Ron. I envy Hermione, she's so beautiful and talented. And Mrs. Weasly, I think she is so nice. Dumbledore too, I adore him so much..'

What about if you slip something like,
'what do you think of Harry? he seems nice. And Hermione, isn't she adorable?'
You know, just stuff like that. Get your listener involved in the conversation.
Just try to avoid the word I.
Well, sometimes I do it too, to be honest.

And one more thing we really really often do,
we commented very slightly on someone's story,
just because we think we have something more important or amusing to tell.
BUT, A VERY BIG BUT,
if we are the ones to tell the story, we would like to hear an impression, right?
we want to be heard, and noticed.
In that way, we use the word I more because we tell stories of our own.

Now, I've been trying not to use the word I, but it's too hard.

We have to understand and try to be sensible of everyone's feeling.
No matter who he/she is.
Don't just think about yourself, you got tons of people around you to pay attention to.

Lemme tell you a story,
there was this one guy, I had a long chat with him.
I told a story, it's about me doing weird things. I suppose he was not interested but I kept going instead.
He seemed to pay no attention, and just saying uh-huh, oh, yeah, and stuff.
and as soon as I finished my story, he came up with his own.
No comments, no compliments, nothing.

Well, from that on, I listened to every single of everyone's story because I know how it feels to be ignored, and hell yeah, it hurts.
So, guys, let's be good to each other.
I hurt people all the time, and I don't want you to do that.

Right now, I know you're thinking that I have no right to tell you anything bout your life.
But believe me, it hurts. And if you don't care, you are going to be the one to feel hurt inside.


Learning from my all of the blunders I've made,
Devy

L . O . V . E

Have you ever loved someone?
Have you ever being loved by someone?

Oh, how ludicrous love is! yet, how enormous love is!
The unconditional love, do you believe in it?
Love is untold. Unexplainable.

Some believe that love is meant to be.
Some believe that love can find its own path.
Some believe that love grows.

I believe that love is just the way it is.
It is undeniable, in the same time, unacceptable.

The Darkness, once brought up a song called 'Love is only A Feeling'
The chorus says,
'love is only a feeling -drifting away-.. when I'm in your arms I start believing -its here to stay- but love is only a feeling.. anyway'

Well, it is true that love IS a feeling.
but it's not ONLY a feeling, it's greater than just a feeling...
Like I said, love is unexplainable..

L..ost in words when describing it
O..blivious about it
V..ast of curiosity about it
E..ternity will never be enough for it

Oh, LOVE, be there for me..
Rock my world with every sense you got!


Hmmm,
Devy