L . O . V . E

Have you ever loved someone?
Have you ever being loved by someone?

Oh, how ludicrous love is! yet, how enormous love is!
The unconditional love, do you believe in it?
Love is untold. Unexplainable.

Some believe that love is meant to be.
Some believe that love can find its own path.
Some believe that love grows.

I believe that love is just the way it is.
It is undeniable, in the same time, unacceptable.

The Darkness, once brought up a song called 'Love is only A Feeling'
The chorus says,
'love is only a feeling -drifting away-.. when I'm in your arms I start believing -its here to stay- but love is only a feeling.. anyway'

Well, it is true that love IS a feeling.
but it's not ONLY a feeling, it's greater than just a feeling...
Like I said, love is unexplainable..

L..ost in words when describing it
O..blivious about it
V..ast of curiosity about it
E..ternity will never be enough for it

Oh, LOVE, be there for me..
Rock my world with every sense you got!


Hmmm,
Devy

Just me

' Don't worry, bout a thing, cause every little thing, is gonna be alrite.. '

Remember that? A song from Bob Marley which is used as a soundtrack of the movie I am Legend? Good song..

Anyways, I've got problems. You know, I often underestimate people.
I think I wrote it before, that I praise myself to high that I can't look down.
I'm a bad bad person.
If you don't know me, well, its just the matter of time that someone will find out how bad I am.

You know, I find people that stick around me very fascinating.
How can they even endure being near me? If I were those people, I really really can't be around myself.
I am loathsome. I should be hatred.

I wish I could be like Johny Gunther, Jr.
He suffered brain cancer but still lived his life blithely.
I wish I could do that, I'm trying to.

I want to be someone. No, I want to be something for someone.

I always considered myself as the forlorn one, but I am disgraceful of what I posses.
This post, is a verbose post. I am just selfish and inconsiderable. That's the point.

A Walk to Remember

Jamie and Landon


Have you ever read or seen the movie 'A Walk to Remember'?
Well, if you haven't, you should.

Its about a seventeen-year-old boy who fell in love with a girl.
But the girl had leukemia.
She used to dream of getting married in the same church her parents got married.
She dreamed of her dad walking her down the aisle,
then finally, gave her up to her lovely husband.
But it just seemed impossible.
She was just seventeen.
But this boy, came like a miracle to her,
he was so crazy about her, crazy in love, I mean.
They finally got married, when she was very sick.
She was so weak, that she and her father had to stop twice before reaching the altar.
That walk, along the aisle, with such an effort, was worth remembering.
That's why the story was called 'A Walk to Remember'.

'Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes' - Corinthians.

Its a passage where the girl highlighted and wanted to show to the boy.
She was very kind and wise.
A character that no one shall beat or defeat of its greatness.
Nicholas Sparks is amazing and adorable.

Want to know more?
Visit this link
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0281358/


Amazed,
Devy Cendana

Unfortunate Friends and Me

I wanted to define the meaning, I want to decipher the unspoken feelings of having one.
But I can't. I never have one in my life, I mean, the true one, the one I can confide in.
No one has ever really share things with me.
Maybe I've been noticed, but not trusted.

I can gain people's trust to believe in me to handle things, to make things right.
But I can never ever make them know that I care.
All these years, I've been such a braggart.
That almost everyone have such a very uncomfortable feelings for me.

Back then, I didn't know.
Now, I think it's too late to fix it.
I know, never say too late, but it really is.
I wish I could go back to three years ago, and make everything goes better.

I have to move on, I know.
But there are certain points where I know that I am the one to blame,
but I praise myself too high that I couldn't find my way down.

I resent myself, for being selfish,
I am trying not to be,
but it's very hard, cause it already seemed like me.
Selfish, me, selfish, me,
seems like so connected, its like permanently curved in me.

I really am trying to change.
In every aspect.

Wish me luck..



Wishing myself luck,
Devy Cendana

Art of Life

"When there's no heart breaking, there will be no healing.
When there's no healing, there will be no learning.
When there's no learning, there will be no struggle.
And struggle is a part of life" - Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill.

I wonder, if we ended up sobbing, will we get better?
I mean, we have our self resilience, right?
For example, when you fail a subject, you will try harder, right?
Maybe you don't realize it, but there's something that mends your heart when it was broken.

I once had a problem, about understanding how human could be that fragile the same time he/she could be strong.
But I know that's the way it was supposed to be, right?
We get hurt, we be strong, and we'll be back to normal.

Many people don't realize of how they great they are.
Many people don't realize how special they are to people around them.

I always wanted to tell my friends,
how important they are to me, how I appreciate every moment I spent with them,
but I was too afraid of listening or seeing how will they react.
I'm afraid that it would disappoint me,
but it turns out that I lost them, that I can never hold on to them again.

I wanted to be indifferent, pathetic,
But I ended up knowing that everything was meant to be felt.
Even though by feeling it means hurting ourselves, but that's just the art of life, right?

Once again, inspired by Lucas Scott,
Devy Cendana

My Day Yesterday

I had this *HORRIBLE* test yesterday.
It's called TOEFL. Gosh! Very very difficult for me.
It's even very weird. Can you imagine an English test without problems of structure and grammar?
There was only listening and reading! You know what's most annoying?

The passage is so *DAMN* long! It's like a page full of passage with 10-15 paragraph! And, one passage is only for 10 questions! Gosh!
I am NOT going to pass the stupid test!

And for listening, we had to listen to a part of a LECTURE! LECTURE! Gosh!
It's like 5 minutes lecture for just 6 questions! Urgh! I felt like dying there, ya know?
I was kinda stressed out yesterday.

Then, I rented some movie. Actually, it's a movie and a serial.
The movie, Kungfu Panda, hell yeah funny.
But the serial, it's like a Korean serial.
Man, had I not understand a part of the serial!

Oh, man, I've had a worse day than this one.
But, just take it easy! This day would be so much better!

Just a Little of Something

I have not much to tell, not much to say.
But I really want to share, to someone, one day.
Unfortunately, I have no guts, I want to gain some, if I may.

I am afraid, afraid of the sudden raid of my emotion.
It may just bursts away without any precaution.
So sudden, screws up all of my motion.

I hate the dark, but I dislike the burning light,
But the warmth of the sunlight, just feels like holding me tight.
Just like the cold of the dark that accompanies me every night.

I think a lot about the life that's hard to endure,
But I know I'll survive for sure,
Just be nice and act mature.