Life. It's confusion.

have you ever wonder how were we invented?
have you ever think about it?

it's too hard for us to understand what we were made of, or how we are invented.
then, if we do not know what we were made of or who invented us,
no wonder we are so hard to find who ourselves really are, right?

why do we have to survive?
why do we have to fight so hard?
is it just a game?
ever since we come into this world as a baby who knows nothing, why do we have to survive?

where do feelings come from?
I'm not sure it is from our heart, because if it is, we don't even know what does our heart made of.
our soul, is it immortal?
do you believe that if we have found our soulmate in this life than we will find them again in our next life?
do you even believe that there is a next life after this?

why are there rich people?
why are there poor people?
do you truly believe that it depends on how hard we try?
what if there's a smart person but he was unlucky?
where does luck come from?

who invented destiny?
who managed our luck?
is it God?
how can God manage six billion people in the world?
not that I wanted to underestimate God..
but it's just confusing.

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WIMBLEDON!

Are you a big fan of tennis?
Yeah? Are you sure?

Now, let's discuss some of the hottest news in tennis!
The hottest one, involving two hot tennis players,
RAFAEL NADAL and ROGER FEDERER!!

Yeah, yeah, Nadal defeated Roger in the final,
and yeah, Nadal IS the champion of the 2008 Wimbledon!!
Well, it's not a very big surprise anyway,
knowing the fact that Rafa beat Roger at Roland Garros by 6-0 on the third set.
Crazy, huh?

And, Vijay Amitraj, you are definitely wrong.
Did you know that his prediction on 'VJ on the Spot' is totally wrong?
Well, yeah, he kinda predict that Roger would win in 4 sets.

Wimbledon this came up with big surprises,
1. Ana Ivanovic , the number one-seeded, and the number one woman tennis player in the whole world, nearly defeated by Nathalie Dechy from Italy, but her luck saved her.

2. But Ana couldn't count on her luck for the second time as she was defeated by a double player from Chinese, Zheng Jie.

3. The beautiful, tall, and slender Maria Sharapova was defeated by her fellow Russian, Allan Kudryavtseva.

4. The great server Andy Roddick was beaten by Serbian Janko Tipsarevic, who played 5 sets to Roger Federer in the past Australian Open.

5. Jelena Jankovic, the player who was beaten by Lindsay Davenport on last year's Wismilak tournament, was beaten by Tamarine Tanasugarn, a Thai player who had a baby last year. Jelena was injuring her knee after playing Caroline Wozniacki in the previous round.

6. James Blake, the American player was also beaten by Janko Tipsarevic.

7. Richard Gasquet was beaten by the British Andy Murray in 5 sets after leading 2sets to love.

8. The third seeded Serbian, Novak Djokovic who had won this year's Australian Open, was surpsingly beaten by the Russian, the ex-number one men tennis player, MARAT SAFIN.

9. David Nalbandian, the seventh-seeded, was defeated by Frand Dancevic.

10. Nikolay Davydenko was beaten by Benjamin Becker.

11. The elder sister beat the younger one, YES! The Williams Sister! Venus got the trophy! And, they both won the woman doubles title too..

12. Bob and Mike Bryan cannot reach the final! ooohhhh.... But they both succeeded in the mixed-doubles, and made it to the final. Bob won the title.

That's it.

Hey, you know what, next year, there wouldn't be any rain delay or whatsoever.
The new roof will be ready by next year!!
Ooohh, I love Wimbledon!!!

Let's wait for another tournament, US Open, Masters Cup and Olympics.

If you are a tennis fan, contact me.
Find me on Friendster or Facebook by the name Devy Cendana.

It's a Part of Me You'll Never Know

I think I am different, you know, in every kind of way.
I'm not perfect, not even close.
I'm just different, weird, maybe.

I read a novel in the middle of a tennis match yesterday.
Oh, and by the way, Marat Safin was very, very awful in the semi of Wimbledon.

When I'm not feeling well, I can easily blow up, easier than when I'm healthy.
What I meant there, is not well in the physical way.

I cheated on several tests but I never regret it.
I scored good, if you wanna know.

I like listening 50 cent the way I like listening System of a Down and Good Charlotte and Britney.
Okay, I might like SOAD better than Britney. LOL

My English sucks, but I'm still trying hard to do better.
You might wonder why am I this confident to publish my writing then.
But uh, just like what I said, I'm trying.
And if you find any, any mistakes, will you contact me?
Devy Cendana, find me on friendster of facebook.

I talk to myself every time, I got no one to talk to.
I mean seriously, I do, but it just doesn't feel right.

I'm going to leave my family in just a few month,
but I don't feel like doing it.
I got no preparation, uh maybe courses, but instead of that, nothing.

When I was questioned who is the person that I admire the most,
I can barely answer it.

I'm confused.
I'm bored.

I even wonder why people are waiting for holiday.
Well, maybe that because I have nothing to do for holiday.
Oh, pity me..

Quotes from One Tree Hill-Lucas Scott-

- As happens sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone.

- Happiness comes in many forms -- in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed. It's okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

- As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our life better, money, popularity, fame, we ignore the things that truly matter. The simple things like friendship, family, love, the things we probably already had.

- Life comes rushing at you
From out of the darkness
When it does
Is there someone in your life you can count on?
Someone who will watch over you when you stumble and fall
And in that moment
Give you the strength to face your fears alone

- Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we’re looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn't do, things we didn't say that could have saved someone we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.

- William Shakespeare wrote; 'Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds. It is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken. Love alters not with time's brief hours and weeks, but bears it out even to the edge of doom.'