Leaving FRIENDS, Leaving HOME, Leaving FAMILY, Leaving BALI, Leaving INDONESIA

The day after tomorrow is the day that I'm gonna leave.

I'm gonna leave my friends, -well I don't have that much of friends, but I really appreciate those who stand by me-

I'm gonna leave my family, -my parents, the reason why I'm doing this. my brothers, who always wanted the best for me-

I'm gonna leave home, -the only place I've been living in, it is even older than me, it's 20 years old now-

I'm gonna leave Bali, -the island I always worship, where I've done everything I've ever accomplished-

I'm gonna leave Indonesia, -which I decried the most, but deep inside, I am always proud of it in International Events, despite of the poverty, corruption-

Leaving.. I've been thinking bout it since ever. 

But I don't really feel like doing it,

even though I've packed my things, I've said goodbyes, I've known where I'll live in SG

but there's this one thing,

I'm still at home. 

I still joke around with my bros, I still chat with my mom,

and most of all, I'm still at home. 

I'm proud of my mom.

I'm the only daughter she's got, but yet, she packed my things with no hesitation.

Man, how could she be that strong??

Me, I sometimes cried at night, knowing I won't be sleeping on this bed anymore. 

Gosh, I'm so fragile. 

My bro,

There was this one night, when he went to my room,

said that he wanted to spend the night with me.

Then, he talked about me going to SG, how they will miss me,

how he always wanted the best for me.

Both of us cried that night, all together, holding each other's hand until we fell asleep.

I promised  everyone here, that I will be good,

living life there happily,

and

reach all of my ideals.

It seems like this goodbye, means 

a new start for me.

Where I can erase my past -which I am not proud of-

Where I can do better

Where I can start to learn to treat people better

Where I can be someone new,

someone better.

Goodbye friends, home, family, Bali, Indonesia,

Devy C